Friday, July 1, 2011
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I was trapped in a Homosexual lifestyle; Well I was a success as far as the World could tell a good job, nice home, and a Lexus! Does it get better than that? Oh yes, and a different guy every saturday night, but that all Changed in the fall of 1995. Let me tell you just what happened.
I noticed a real cute guy who lived down the street. He drove a small truck with a Harvest Crusade bumper sticker. Now I had been a Mormon for 25 years although not active all those years. I knew about Harvest Christian Fellowship and Pastor Greg Laurie. It was part of the Calvary Chapel, and every year at the Anaheim Stadium they had a "Crusade" and a lot of long haired people who had nothing else to live for gave their lives to Jesus. Well I thought if that is what this guy believed then I could "convert" him into being a homosexual real easy. I even sent him a note although I didn't sign it. No matter, I was Going to somehow meet him and he would like me. Since he was a "Born Again Christian" I had better get to know something about it. I had a C-Band satellite dish, and got the "Z" music channel, Christian Music MTV style networks. I bought some CD's; Michael Card, Wayne Watson, Gary Chapman, and a Maranatha music one too.
An SDA friend invited me to a Michael Card Concert at Loma Linda Campus Church in Oct. 1995. Also I Invited my Neighbors over for Thanksgiving Dinner. Something just kept drawing me to "Harvest Dude" as I had nick named him. Well, Thanksgiving came, and I found out "Harvest Dude's" name was Joe, but he would not be able to make it. He was single and going to his parent's home for dinner, but he did come over and thanked me for inviting him. The neighbor, who lived next door to Joe, Ruben, came over. Ruben's wife had left him, and he had no place to go for dinner. Also, Terry, the lady across the street from me who was divorced came over. Ruben was born again, and went to Harvest. Terry was not attending any church at the time so Ruben invited Terry and I to Harvest. We had a great dinner and agreed that the following Sunday, Terry, Joe, (he found out later) Ruben and I would all attend Church. Well it was a shock! A live band on stage, (not in your wildest dreams in the Mormon church) and everyone was dressed like they were going to the beach! And Pastor Greg was a bald headed 40 year old! Not at all like I had heard -- a longhaired hippie freak. Well the "Praise Music" was loud and not "the old rugged cross" songs like "Lord, I Lift your name on high", "Awesome God" and "I love your Grace."
Also The people seemed to be singing to God, and not to just sing out loud. Pastor Greg read from the Bible and not just one verse, but a whole Chapter! And then explained it in modern terms, and even made me laugh! The meeting had started at 6 p.m., and it was now 8 p.m. Two hours at Church? Pastor Greg did an altar call and about 50 or 60 people went forward. I remember thinking I don't need to go I was a Mormon and knew all about Jesus.
The next week was "Hell." The water heater blew up at 2 a.m. and things at my job started looking real bad. The Lexus was giving me some trouble, and I had just broken up with a guy. I drove the car into the garage and thought about letting the door close behind me and turning the radio on and just letting the exhaust build up in the garage; I would just drift off to sleep forever, but something stopped me.
I went to church the following Sunday and it was about the same, but this time I almost got up at the altar call. I said that was stupid. I already knew the Lord or so I thought. The week went along fine. Christmas was going to be on Monday, and it was now Saturday. I was getting out of the shower when all of a sudden I started to cry, and I don't mean a little! Sobs and a feeling of doom came over me. I went to my bedroom and knelt by the side of the bed. I started to pray like I never had before. I told God that I was sorry, and that I knew the life I was living was wrong. I now had no tears left just heavy sobs, and my side hurt. I never felt so bad in my whole life then inside my mind came these words "My Son, I love you. I forgive you." WOW! I can't tell you the joy and love that I felt, and when I got up from that prayer I had lost all my desire to sin. I no longer had a lust for men -- Praise God! He had removed all that from me, and the next day was Christmas Eve, and at 9 P.M at a Christmas Eve service at Harvest Christian Fellowship I gave my life publicly over to Jesus Christ.
I later told Ruben and Joe about the letters I had sent. Joe said "Praise the Lord, I have a new brother in Christ". Ruben also praised God, and said "it doesn't matter anymore." No matter what the sin, the answer is Jesus Christ. Do you know Him? Do you know that if you died today where you would be? Romans 3:10 tells us "As it is written: There is none righteous, no, not one." Also in Romans God's Word tells us "for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, therefore, just as through one man sin entered the world, and death through sin, and thus death spread to all men, because all sinned." We can see by reading God's Word that no man can stand in his own righteousness and that the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. Because God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. The inspired Word of God also tells us in Romans 10:13 for "whoever calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved." Have you called on the name of the Lord? Jesus tells us in Mark 16:16 "But he who does not believe will be condemned." There is a place called hell, it is real. The Bible speaks of it as a place of eternal torment. Eternally apart from God. Again I ask you if you died today where would you go? Heaven with God, or hell apart from God Forever?
God's Word tells us "that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation" (Romans 10:9,10). Would you like to have all your sins forgiven, and know today that you are a child of God? You can. Just say this prayer and really mean it. 'Lord Jesus, I confess I am a sinner. I now turn from my sins, and ask you to forgive me, to come into my life. Thank-you for dying for me. Thank-you for forgiving me. In Jesus name Amen.'
If you just said that prayer, and really meant it, Jesus Christ has just entered your life. Welcome to the Family of God! In John Chapter 1 verse 12 and 13 it says, "But as many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, to those who believe in His name: who were born, not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God." In John Chapter 3 verse 3 Jesus said, "Most assuredly, I say to you, unless one is born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God." If you said that prayer you are born again, with a spirit, and you would be led by the Spirit, the Holy Spirit. How? By reading and learning the Word of God, the Bible, and fellowshipping with true believers in Jesus Christ. In the Book of Acts it tells about the early church and everything that is taught there will show the signs of good healthy church.
UPDATE: Jan 2002: Well, after asking Jesus into my heart in Dec. 1995 the Lord richly blessed me! And for one full year all of the homosexual thoughts and desires were gone, but then, one day when I was seated in church, singing a worship song, someone in a tank top and shorts walked down the isle to find a seat, and thoughts so perverse entered my mind with such force, that I really had to turn my head to see if the people seated on either side of me heard my thoughts! Well, I thought, I'd lost my salvation, here. I had told everyone that I'd been delivered from homosexuality, and now a year later I was starting to have those old thoughts and desires return! Who could I go to? I thought all my new Christian friends would run away from me now!
Well, as you know, our Lord is so faithful, and He placed godly men in my path, and well, although they had never struggled with homosexuality they were able to reassure me that I was still saved, and that I needed to take up my cross daily and follow Him! So, went 1997 to 1999 and in Jan of 2000, one of the Counselors at my church asked if I would be interested in being used by the Lord to start up a ministry, so started the Rainbow Cross Ministry now called A New Creation Ministry. We started a phone prayer team and an email prayer team; Then, a bible study six months later. The Lord was faithful to bring along side me a godly brother who helps and encourages me, and who has also come out of the homosexual life.
I don't know if I will ever be totally free from the thoughts and temptations of homosexuality, but I pray and continue to see the Lord's guiding hand in my life. I agree with God that it is sin. And the desire is getting less and less,and this I know -- I will never be ashamed of the Gospel of Jesus Christ, and what is amazing, is that Jesus Christ is not ashamed and will never be ashamed of me despite my flaws! I encourage all believers to be open and honest with their struggles. God resists the proud, but He gives grace to the humble. James 4:6
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Hi, my name is Alison and I confess that I am a sinner. Imagine introducing yourself as a sinner. Imagine sharing your personal testimony. Imagine leading someone to Christ. That's what we are called to do!
In 2nd Timothy chapter 4, Paul encourages Timothy to preach the word of God - be persistent, whether the time is favorable or not, don't be afraid of suffering for the Lord. Work at bringing others to Christ. Complete the ministry God has given you.
I love the apostle Paul. I find common ground with him. I relate to the transformation God did in his life. It gave me hope that if the Lord could forgive him, then He could forgive me and use me to glorify Him.
Paul was a Jew whose birthplace was Tarsus, but was brought up in Jerusalem. He was educated under Gamaliel and followed the Jewish laws carefully. He became very zealous to honor God in everything he did. He believed in persecuting the people of the "Way".
I was brought up in Southern California. I was educated under me. When I was younger and with no conscience, I educated myself in stealing cars, breaking into houses, and lying to my Dad; I felt that I didn't need to go to school, I dealt drugs, and beat people up; I was raped, beaten and molested by a number of older men.
The only man I loved and trusted was my earthly father. My Mom and Dad divorced when I was nine, and the decision was made that I would live with my Dad. I thought this was cool because I had the freedom to do just about anything I wanted. My Dad was a great man. He was honest, loving, friendly and funny, but I don't know whether he actually knew how to raise a young girl or not.
He provided direction and tried to discipline me, but I was strong willed, self-reliant, and didn't listen to him or anyone else. I blazed my own trail and was good at covering my tracks.
On multiple occasions, the police pursued me, but I always got away. I should have been put into juvenile hall and in jail, but I was always one step ahead of the law. Looking back, I can see that my life was a mess, but I thought that it was normal.
My father passed away when I was 24. He had a massive heart attack driving to work. My world collapsed. The one man in my life that I loved and trusted was gone. Because of his death, I became angry and didn't allow myself to love or trust anyone; I did not allow anyone to rule over me. My perfect life was of sin and pain. I continued to party and sleep around and did not care who hurt me or who I hurt. Through all of this, God still had His hand on me, and it wouldn't be long before He would meet me on the "Damascus" road.
The apostle Paul who was formerly known as Saul was going about his business , one day, persecuting the followers of "the way". These followers, men and women alike, who would later become known as Christians were being delivered by Paul to prison and some to death. As Paul went along, a bright light from heaven suddenly appeared. It shined right on him causing him to fall to the ground. As he fell, he heard a voice saying, "Saul, Saul why are you persecuting me?" Paul said "Who are you, sir?" Jesus said, "It is Jesus of Nazareth the one whom you are persecuting." Paul asked, "What should I do, Lord?" The Lord told him to get up and go into Damascus and there he would be told all that he needed to do.
Blinded by the bright light, Paul had to be led to Damascus by his companions. Once in Damascus, the Lord sent Ananias to restore Paul's sight and to tell him that the Lord had chosen him to know God's will and to take the gospel to the world proclaiming what he had seen and heard. Now get up, be baptized and have your sin washed away, calling on the name of the Lord.
So my story continues - I'm sinning and pulling others down with me and then on the first week of April, 2000, I fell at work. The fall seriously injured my back and caused me to keep from working for nine months; On the second week of April, 2000, I ended a ten year relationship; And, on the third week of April, 2000, I turned 37 years old. These three weeks were the worst three weeks of my life. Or were they?
I was in excruciating pain physically, emotionally, and spiritually. My job was in jeopardy and the person I had invested ten years of my life with wasn't there to take care of me. I was unable to do anything but stay in bed and writhe in pain. I was angry with God and I felt my life was over so what a better time to start a new habit. I began smoking again but with reluctance for I remembered how hard it was to quit previously.
Smoking would be a habit that I would practice in the garage so between April and July I spent my time in there puffing away. The temperature in the garage was getting hotter and very uncomfortable.
As I continued with my habit, I still wasn't working, was very depressed, was in a lot of pain and going to physical therapy, was smoking pot, was gaining weight, was munching on Oreo cookies, and was literally eating five lb bags of peanuts. I hated life.
Being one who was self educated, I turned to myself to begin the brilliant plan that would help me quit smoking cigarettes, again. I remember thinking to myself 'I need something to help me not want to smoke' so I looked around my garage and saw a bible. I thought 'that's it! anytime I want to smoke I will force myself to read the bible. That will get me to quit smoking in no time'. The bible began speaking to me. It began to reveal my sins and to extend His grace, mercy and forgiveness toward me. At times I would get mad and throw my bible down then yell out 'speak to me now, Lord!'
At midnight, July 4, 2000, I dropped to my knees crying and asked the Lord to come into my life. My encounter with God, on the road to Damascus, happened in my garage.
I immediately got involved in every bible study they had at the church. Hey, I wasn't working and with a bad back I composed the following schedule for myself:
Monday: Bible Basic Studies
Tuesday: Drug and Alcohol Ministry
Wednesday: Mid Week Bible Study
Thursday: Women's Bible Study
Friday: Singles Ministry
Saturday: Sports Ministry
For the next few months and as I began to recover from my back injury, I began to go to church with my ex. My ex didn't come to church as often as I did but we did go to the singles ministry together. Although I still felt a lot of guilt due to breaking up her marriage and the relationship they had with the Lord, we proudly lived in sin for 10 years. I had a hard time forgiving myself.
Later, I read in the book of Romans where it says that we were the worst of sinners and we chose to participate in these types of sins and because of our choice, we will not inherit the kingdom of God and He will give us over to our depraved minds. Since the time my ex and I began seeking the Lord, we both felt led to come together in prayer and ask for His forgiveness. We no longer wanted a life of sin apart from God - Our new lives had begun.
My ex and I were still friends and after two years my ex met someone at the single's ministry. God had taken the sin and the guilt and shame and cleansed us by the power of the Holy Spirit; He made us New Creations in Christ.
I was my ex's maid of honor at her wedding. Yes, I said her wedding. We were sharing in the joy of forgiveness and newness of life in Christ. We became an example of that love - Christ's death on the cross for our sins and if we confessed our sin and turned away from it, he would be glorified so we became a living testimony of what God could do. As time passed, my ex and I no longer kept in contact and the door that was once open began to close. Nonetheless, I continued in my quest to know the Lord more intimately.
When Paul was beginning his ministry, he came across people that didn't believe he had truly changed. He attempted to associate with the disciples in Jerusalem, but they were afraid of him. They did not believe Paul was a true disciple so due to their unbelief, Barnabas attested on behalf of Paul that he had been speaking boldly, in the name of Jesus, at Damascus. As time passed, the disciples accepted him. Many times, Paul suffered in the hands of others.
The Lord began to open doors for me to serve in different ministries at church. He brought Christian sisters into my life, and I tried to hide from my past. I thought that if they found out about my past lifestyle, they wouldn't want to be my friends.
The Lord gave me many tests along the way. He was preparing me for the work that He wanted me to do.
One night as I spoke with one of my friends, I felt compelled to share my testimony. I thought 'either she will except me or show me the door'. I recall her words as if it were yesterday. She said "Hey you're a new creation and who am I to judge you? God forgave you. That's all that matters." WOW!!!
I was feeling as if the chains of my past were falling off of me. The Lord had truly set me free, but then more testing.
I was part of a fundraiser for Muscular Distrophy (MS). We biked one hundred miles from Huntington beach to San Diego. Eight friends were riding with me but only two knew my testimony.
We were all on a bus that was taking us to our hotel room and out of nowhere, some bikers appeared in the middle of the road so the bus driver picked them up. We were in the back of the bus singing praise songs when the bikers who were picked up began speaking to us about our faith and about the gay lifestyle.
I looked around and realized that not all of my friends knew my testimony so I hesitated to share. Suddenly something came over me and the next thing I knew, I was sharing and telling everyone on the bus about my past. I was telling them how God had shown me my sin and how He forgave me.
My friends were shocked but as the days went by we became closer and closer. The dark sin that satan wanted me to hide under was becoming a bridge to speak to those who were lost and needed a Savior. More testing, more forgiveness, more growth, more opportunities to share and more power.
The church asked me to be a greeter for the woman's ministry and again the enemy made me feel as if I couldn't serve the Lord that way.
My mind was pretty much made up that I would not assist in the ministry, but on the day I was leaving to go to church to give them an answer, I received a letter from a sister-in-Christ. It said "The other day when I saw you and you gave me a hug, I felt as if God was comforting me and I wanted to thank you for your words of encouragement when I was hurting. I woke up that morning not wanting to live. My life was so messed up but the Lord used you to help me snap out of it and refocus on Him. Thanks again."
I went to church that night and let them know of my situation, and they agreed that I would make a great addition to their greeting team. Old things are passed away behold all things are new.
My friend who had been like a Barnabas to me. The one who had accepted my past without hesitation was now being confronted by some family members about our relationship. I thought that everyone would accept me but things weren't working out that way. Our friendship was getting tougher to deal with. Eventually we stopping talking.
For some reason, I thought that this new life with the Lord would be easy, but not everyone knows the Lord, and even if they did they are not perfect; I wasn't about to judge anyone for not accepting me.
Paul tried to live in such a way that no one would find fault in his ministry. He was beaten, thrown in jail, faced angry mobs, worked to exhaustion, endured sleepless nights and went without food. He proved himself by his purity, understanding, patience, kindness, sincere love and the power of the Holy Spirit (2 Cor 6:3-6 & Acts 16:25).
During the time he and Silas were imprisoned, he sang to the Lord. The Lord then caused an earthquake which in turn caused the jail doors to swing wide open. He had the chance to escape but he didn't. Instead he shared Christ with the guards and the other inmates. Many came to faith through his witness.
I too was given an opportunity to serve in the prison ministry. They were in need of volunteers. I didn't have any gifts to offer, but I felt as if the Lord was directing me to go and serve. My friend Amy played guitar and a few times I had worshiped with her so I would go and sing. It wasn't too long after that I picked up a guitar and started to play it. I know the Lord can give you any gift He wants to; They needed someone to lead worship and I was available. Not having any skills nor talent, just available.
One night I was asked to pray about teaching a bible study. I said 'oh, no thanks, not me. I never went to school. I'm not smart enough to teach'. I provided one excuse after another but the Lord kept reminding me of the things He had done to equip me for every good work.
After months of fighting it, I finally agreed. The Lord was preparing me to build that bridge with the women in jail who were lost, lonely, misguided sinners who had been molested, beaten, thieves, liars and are in the gay lifestyle - those who need a bridge to God.
He wanted me to share with them my testimony. To relay to them that no matter what they have done, the Lord loves them and He has paid the price for all of their sins on the cross. They do not need to be ashamed but only need to confess their sins and be willing to turn away from those sins and turn to Jesus.
Later, the Lord opened another door to serve in the Juvenile Hall every Sunday morning. I would share with them all that the Lord has done in my life and the things that happened to me when I was their age. I tell them of all the ways the Lord has helped me. It gives them hope and give them direction to a saving relationship with the Lord.
What is your personal testimony?
Do you share with those who God has put in your path, or do you hide behind the guilt and shame?
Do you believe the enemies' lie that you will never be forgiven and much less be able to be used by God?
Where do you draw your strength, your power?
Acts 1:8 says that you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes upon you and you shall be My [His] witnesses both in Jerusalem and in Judea and Samaria and even to the ends of the earth.
My first bible study at church had to do with the book of Acts. The aforementioned verse, seems to be the one that stuck with me. To let God use me through the power of the Holy Spirit, How cool is that?!
Acts 10:38 says that God anointed Jesus with the Holy Spirit and with Power. Then Jesus went around doing good and healing all who were oppressed by the devil for God was with Him. Ladies, we are given the same Holy Spirit and the same Power!
We are called to go to the Jerusalem's in our life that is our HOME. The Judea's of our workplace, the Samaria's out of our comfort zone and to the ends of the earth - EVERYWHERE!
We are to share the gospel. We are commanded to share the gospel. We are to show others that the Lord is real. He can, through the Power of the Holy Spirit, change a sinner like you, like me.
We are to give every man an answer to the hope we have in Christ (1 Pet 3:15). The forgiveness of sins, His grace and power, His mercy and compassion and the newnes of life in Him.
We are a walking billboard for Christ. We are to learn about Him and become more like Him. But, that will not always be easy. It will cost us.
Are you willing? Are you willing to count the cost? Luke 15:27 tells us that you cannot be Christ's disciple if you do not carry your own cross and follow Him.
2 Cor 5:17 speaks about our new self. Our dying to the past life apart from Christ and beginning our new life of freedom. If you read a bit further through verse 20, it says that all this newness of life is from God who brought us back to Himself through what Christ did for us.
God has given us the task of reconciling people to Him. (Reconciliation is a service to others on God's behalf). For God was in Christ reconciling the world to Himself, no longer counting people's sins against them. This is the wonderful message He has given us to tell others. We are Christ's ambassadors!!! Titus 2:14 says "We are ambassadors for Christ, His representatives, we are His Possession." We must share with others what He has done for us. We are to teach and encourage everyone. That is why we are here. Our purpose is to spread the gospel to the ends of the earth and everywhere in between.
His cross and resurrection
That we are forgiven
Set free from sin
That our hope is in Christ
Filled with the Spirit, full of Power
God lives in us, He has a purpose for us
We are identified in Christ not in our past
We have His position and Power
Our lives become a platform for Christ
Jack Graham spoke at Harvest Christian Fellowship one time about an all star athlete who gave his career a back seat to sin. He got into drugs, adulteress relationships and when he finally gave his life to the Lord, it changed him. He said "I am proof that hope is never lost, the message we share is life changing, I am what I am by the grace of God. I am not ashamed of the gospel. It has the power to save. I am a messenger and God has given me a message, a personal testimony to glorify Him."
Are we doing for God what He has called us to do? Are we sold out to the one who paid the ultimate price for our sins or have we taken a back seat to the Lord and allowed the world to control us and our decisions? Have we missed opportunities to share Christ through our painful past and into our glorious future?
I once read a book called Praying God's Word by Beth Moore. It had a quote from a man named Dennis who said: "Why do I share my testimony? For several reasons. When God gave me the gift of life, I believe he coupled it with the desire to share my freedom with others. I could never withhold salvation and hope from anyone, even if it means the regular sharing of my own deepest wounds and failures. Like Jesus, I was called to lay down my life and my reputation that others might see what redemption looks like."
The apostle Paul laid down his life for Jesus; he became a bondservant; he was a witness willing to count the cost. I too want to follow Paul's example. How about you?
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Hi my name is Anthony.
My testimony is somewhat unique, but not uncommon. I´ll begin by explaining what I mean by ´3G´. The 3G is a three part testimony of my life before and after receiving Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. The first G stands for the Gang life I once participated in. The second G stands for the Gay life style I delved into, and the third G stands for the Godly life I now enjoy because of the saving grace and mercy of Jesus Christ. Let me share this with you in detail . . .
At the age of 10, I began to experiment with alcohol, and two years later I began to experiment with drugs. The drugs became a habit which led to harder drugs, and an interest in gang life. This interest in gang activity led to my decision to seek more of it so I became affiliated with a gang and a world of organized crime.
After about 10 years of participating in this wicked and crazy life style my eyes were opened up to the foolish reality of it: My younger brother was shot and killed. In addition, many of my friends had been killed. One year after my brother´s death, I decided to walk away from the gang life, but I still held onto the baggage of drinking and drugs.
Late one night as I listened to my walkman radio I came across the voice of a preacher which caught my attention. I have no idea what station it was, but every night this preacher´s voice would pop up. I thought this was strange, but after a few nights I began to seek outthis station so I could listen to more of what he was saying.
A few days later I was invited to a church service and agreed to go. After the service, the Pastor asked my friend and I if we would like to receive Christ. We did, and my life changed from that very moment. On that day, March 14, 1993, I literally stopped drinking and taking drugs and everything else that was sinful. It was a miracle! I later became active within the church, but a few things I lacked was praying regularly and reading/studying the Bible. I was young in the faith and did not realize how weak and vulnerable I was until I was tested, big time.The Gay Life
About a year and a half later, I moved to another city that was about 10-15 miles away from where I was going to church. I was a sheep who had wandered from the flock, and that´s when the test came. I completely back slid and walked away from the Lord. I then delved into the gay life style. I aggressively pursued all that this new life had to offer.
At approximately the age of seven and not knowing a thing about sex, I felt an attraction towards men. As I became older, it was evident that I was attracted to the same sex. After 14 years of living in this other, selfish and crazy, lifestyle and seeking pleasure which only lasted but a moment, I began to desire to stop living in this manner. I knew this way of life was wrong, but at the same time a battle raged within me because at the same time I didn´t want to leave the life style I was in. This addiction to sex made me feel empty and alone like a prisoner, a prisoner within my own being. This addiction kept me in bondage and literally took me to the end of my rope. I feared to go to sleep at night, and countless nights I would wake up thinking that I was going to die. I knew the consequences of my sin was separation from God, which is hell, and knowing this I was frightened to the core of my soul.The Godly Life
Finally, in June 2008, I re-dedicated my life back to the Lord and what a blessing it has been! I became free at last from the chains of bondage and burden of sin. I now understand what the Psalmist meant when he wrote "He sets the prisoners free and gives them joy" (Psalm 68:6 NLT).
I have learned so much in these past few years. And, the Lord has allowed me to serve in a couple of ministries and Bible studies. Also, I am very thankful that He has placed some awesome godly people into my life. They have been such an inspiration and encouragement to me. I am also in awe at the way He is using me for His glory!
Praise God! I have been sober and celibate for a few years now. It´s not because of my own strength, but because of the power of the Holy Spirit. Philippians 4:13 says that "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
I admit that I still struggle, but who doesn´t struggle with something in this fallen world we live in. I now realize that the Lord is with me in this journey through life, and He is in the process of restoring and completing that which He has begun in me (Philippians 1:6).
If you or someone you know struggles with the sin of homosexuality or is gay identified, remember that their is hope. As you have read, change is possible. Also, it is only by God´s grace that I am able to write and share this testimony. As our Lord and Savior said in Matthew 10:27, with men it is impossible, but not with God; for with God all things are possible.
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